Was It?

Was it yesterday we run and compete together?

Was it yesterday we seek for our own dreams?

Was it yesterday we wake up and share all the good bad things?

Was it cold just to pass like strangers and pretend not knowing?

God knows how I feel, but I am happy for you.

Even if I can't understand what we are doing right now.

Was it yesterday we were in the same room?

Was it yesterday you catch my eyes but it feels plain?

Was it yesterday you saw me from the corner but kept talking to other?

Was it yesterday the food turned cold and taste bland for no reasons?

God knows how you feel, terribly awkward but life must go on.

You don't have to understand, you just need to walk away and start new page.

Let's stop the madness, nothing can make you higher,

nobody can comfort himself and only yourself will understand the most,

put the shoes on, outside of the room is still raining, 

never mind don't keep calling coz it will be sunny soon,

sooner or later, it is only sorry and thanks we can keep saying,

it happens no matter how, don't stuck and good luck.  

 

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Imperfection

All people has many flaws,

We have scars, wounds and weakness,

We come from many stories,

Trauma, hatred, inheritance, loss,

We always want all of these to disappear.

Some people cover them,

some people try to get rid of them,

some people are frustrated of them,

some people are lying about not having them,

we are ashamed and fear of them.  

Imperfection is always imperfection,
The way you understand where they come from,
The more you think you have troubles,
Trouble in yourself, in your action, in your soul,
Aching your heart and distracting your mind.

I want to be friend with my imperfection,
Get along with it and don't want to let it hurt,
I want to be a partner of my imperfection,
To love them so they can overcome the reality,
To make them tough and become my uniqueness.

I want to overshadow my imperfection with my happiness,
When I feel happy everything is fine for some time,
I want to tell people about my friend imperfection,
Because when people understand they will tolerate it,
But who am I and my imperfection to begin for?

Imperfection said it is a reality you cannot change,
Imperfection said when people know people will find my weakness,
Imperfection said it will last forever inside me,
Imperfection is always be there and nowhere to go,
Imperfection is sealed inside me and die within me.

So I understand imperfection,
hugging my imperfection, looking into its both eyes,
Telling imperfectio  everything is just fine,
We will be okay, because it has me, and I have it,
because together, imperfection is me too.

Always be me and it's me,
Imperfection and what I want, we are no different,
If I love myself I love imperfection,
And if I hurt myself I hurt my imperfection,
So imperfection, stay with me, you will always be me.

The road is still long way to go,
Let's go together and we see the sunrise,
Let's go together and we see the sunset,
There are many beautiful things we can see together,
Hold my hands, we will find all the way until the edges of the world!

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Mister Stranger

Hi, Mister stranger you should know this,

you are cute from up to toe and tickle my sight,

I know you try to sneak in and talk to me personally,

but you are so shy that we always end up talking in a crowd,

I know you are annoyed when other people intervene,

especially when you want to know my personality.

Once you ask what activities I like to do,

I said the mountain is more delightful than a beach,

what do you think about me? I wonder.

As I want to ask the vice versa, then somebody pops up.  

He said excitedly, I also like a mountain like you! 

You frown in annoyance, you dislike the little guest.

So I chuckle and see what you do about this time.

You remain silent, probably slightly annoyed. 

really want to cuddle you on your sulky red face,

I hug you in my imagination and helplessly remain giggling in blush.

on my little tiny chamber of heart I said poor you little boy, 

please be courage next time and I will always be with you. 

Mister Stranger, I want to know you more,

I want to know where you travel to and about your life,

please let me in and open a little space for me to sit,

to listen on your story as a youngster and today you as well,

Mister Stranger, I don't know what this feeling is,

But you make my heart skips a beat and gently touch my heart,

with your kindness, adultness and braveness, I can't forget.

Mister Stranger, every night I always dream about your smile,

and you sit beside me whispering about your journey and will,

you know how to please me very well since the beginning,

how can I forget you, Mr Stranger? You are something for me,

You protect me from an enemy and we ever play together,

what I love from you is sharing the raid to me, I know it's silly.

Mister, one day if I grow older, I want to stand side by side with you,

I want to mature up and being independent so I can protect you too!

I want to cook for you, iron your shirt and make a hot chocolate at night,

Mister never chooses to whom he protects, he attacks people who hurt me,

I like him, I adore him, he is like both my shield and long sword,

So Mister, where can I meet you again? I miss you day by day. 

 

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Hello 2019!

Hello readers!

Belated Happy New Year and welcome to 2019! This post will be dedicated for a summary of my 2018 year. Many things happened of course in a year. Elating, amusing, upsetting and so on. Let's see what I can summarise!

Around January 2018, I travelled to Malaysia and I saw many improvements in the neighbouring country if I compare it to my country. I got many chances to taste the delicacy of Malaysian food and got a surprising experience. I was visiting a night hawker street and an uncle said I spoke like a very fine native English with a Chinese face. It was very both amusing and entertaining for me, it was a very nice compliment. I also found a good song during my visit, some people open the song on their home, I pay attention to some housings area and the neighbourhood enjoyed Wang Lee Hom song! 😆 If you want to try to listen to the song here is the link. 王力宏 leehom Wang《再見英雄》 (I still listen on it sometimes, the song has deep lyric by the way). 

Besides visiting Malaysia, in January I also got my first surgery on my life. I suffered from a long lasted migraine, backache and itchy eardrums on 2017. After several medical checks up, I suffered impacted tooth. I need a big surgery because the root of my tooth has impacted my blood vessel. It was not a nice experience indeed, it was a big momentum on my life, I feel the hospital is so lonely, sad and it is close to death. I become so melancholic in the hospital. But gratefully, I am healthy and I can do my activities very well until today, it's a big thanks to my doctor, he is very wise and experienced. My parents also support me well, I feel so happy with my surroundings.

Around April, it was my first time I played and enjoyed a war game. The name of the game is Rage of Kings, well it changes to several different names with different version too. People who play this game are various, from youngsters, teens, old man, very old man, old lady and so on from around the world. People here are very dramatic, full of politics, and very sensitive. like in a day they can be friends and on the same day, they fight each other. Well, it's a war game after all, LOL. The good thing is that no matter how bad it sounds, there are also good and wise people. At first, I play it for fun, but I get a nice alliance. I like to pay attention to the people honestly. It was fun. Yes, it was! It's past tense because my alliance is somehow... how to say......... broken?! 😅😅😅😅😅 Well, it's a game I know. It's for fun, I kinda have to enjoy it I guess. Well, I miss the old ambiance, but nothing is mortal, so moving on is the best options I believe.

On 1st of June, I visited juvenile prison in Sukamiskin district. I never get the chance to visit a prison in my life, so this is my first experience. I love kids, they are bright, beautiful and smart. But some situation does not support kids to be so. Some turn to be juvenile, they do crimes like stealing, raping, bullying and so on. Of course, these kids should not be judged for his/her entire life, they must be restored so they get the chance to get back to the society and here the juvenile prison accommodate it. This place is very beautiful, it is like expensive exclusive dormitories and schools. Juveniles here are very polite and educated. they are well maintained and they do many positive activities like soccer, having a pet, planting and boy/girl scout organization. they also taught by a very good English teacher, Mexican soccer coach, and wise religion teachers. This is a very precious experience of my life! I hope these kids can get back to society and become good people for the nation and worldwide!

On the month of June, I also got back to work again with United Nations ILO. It was fun, my mentor (also my dear lecturer) led me to a very nice experience! I am happy to be with her project, it was awesome, we traveled a lot from one place to other places, meeting awesome people in Ministry, court, labor union and many more. We also got the chance to visit Semarang City for meeting and a short travel trip.

In July, I started a new sport for a better lifestyle. I do yoga in the gym every Monday and Thursday. I also do acro-yoga. I think yoga suits my body, it makes my soul feels better and realizing sore and stiff back. Some movements are easy to be practiced at home. I still maintain the sport until today. I hope it can help with my metabolism and balance my bad lifestyle as Nocturnal. 

Starting from July, I also temporarily stopped using my Instagram. I think Instagram is very toxic social media. Although sometimes the information is good provided and useful, some users are not smart enough to keep their privacy and give too much privacy. I feel my life is thrice better without it, I feel more productive and I don't have to be so nosy of others' people lives. I am the captain of my life so I do what I want and I think best, not based on comments and people likes. I also don't have to glue on my phone, it felt so sick to be like that. I will make a comeback someday, but with less detail and not so soon.

Around August, my social media was being hacked. It was a not a nice experience honestly. A person from the train company got a leaked number of my phone and passcode. gladly I did manage to secure my accounts. It is highly recommended to change password routinely. I should make it as a habit from now on.

On September-November, I didn't do many activities, I focused on my study, my thesis proposal too, working as well as maintaining my body with Yoga. I had a bad eating composition during these three months. I used boost force (Echinacea Purpurea herb and Elderberry dry extract) since December until today to keep me awake and do my activity normally. I also increased my vitamin C intake. My study got very difficult lately, some come from unfairness system and during my split focus to work and study. Gladly I managed to finish it all, it was tiring and time-consuming.

On December, I am satisfied with a good movie titled Natsume Yuujinchou Utsusemi ni Musubu Movie. It is a very good movie, very heartwarming and touchy. It taught me how to be grateful for my life and life does not come twice so we should make precious memories. Well, I won't make a spoiler of the story here, hehehee~ If you are curious about it, try to watch it. It's a beautiful one. 

On the same month, I also met my ex after several years we didn't meet in real life. I think to re-communicate with the ex is something which is a very wise thing I can learn from my life. I believe it takes lots of courage to meet somebody who used to be close to you and we make mistakes together (or perhaps in some cases it is one-sided). Life is wide and big, in my opinion, it is not nice to hate somebody for a long time and I am not such a person. I believe both of us have some kind of afraid of anxiety that probably each of us still resent on each other for a long time. I didn't let negative feelings influence my life too much and I believe hatred is very toxic and bad, it is like a nasty scar which never been healed, I am not into on it honestly. I think it is a good idea that I take the chance to re-communicate again respectfully, I want to respect my ex for his courage to talk and to communicate to me as well. We had some casual talk, and since he is older than me, he shared some of his good experience in life, we also talk about many things regarding future life and I hope he does the best of his life.                 

That is for 2018, overall it is a pleasant year and I am looking forward to a more beautiful year in 2019. Resolution? Hmm... I rarely make a resolution, but I really wish I can explore to more countries this year, meet and connect to more people in the world, and I really want to make a big thing in my life (probably about growing the florist or trying something new). I also start a good habit from my government for not using the plastic bag every time we go shopping since January 2019. Although sometimes I forgot to bring my own recycle bag, I really want strictly limit myself to use plastic in my everyday life. 

I hope everybody has a beautiful year in 2019, stay healthy, enjoy your life and don't forget to keep caring for each other to the environment! 

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Kids Story

Title: Froghog

Live a frog and a hog. Frog likes hog to hop. hey hog hey hog, where today we jog? hog replied hey frog hey frog, why ask me, I am not a dog! then frog ask hog to hop in front of a fog. they walk and tell joke until they saw a log on an oak. it said "No hog, no frog, if pass they will be chopped." their mind clog and remain to be unspoken. then frog thinks and pokes hog. Hey hog, hey hog, let's just go and hope. Hey frog hey frog, are you dumb to joke! we will be chopped! said hog almost like being choked. hey hog hey hog, don't worry let's hop. then they hop and meet a giant eagle croaks. Knock! Knock! Woo I like tasty hog and frog with a coke! then frog tell croaked eagle to stop. i am froghog, a poisonous speciment, don't eat froghog, you might choke to death, no joke! eagle stops to croak, fearing of being choked. so he lets froghog to pass the log. Froghog, the smart creature pass the fog, frog and hog then happily live surrounding the world.  

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Apa Arti "k" Dalam Satuan Harga Barang atau Jasa?

Hi readers! 

Pasti sering banget lagi belanja online atau belanja sehari-hari kita selalu menemukan huruf "k" di belakang angka harga barang. Misalnya harga pakaian Rp. 234.000,- menjadi 234k. Atau ada di tulisan-tulisan banner counter penjual hp biasa menulis harga handphone Rp.5.000.000,- menjadi 5000k. Kata-kata ini juga sering dong kalian temui saat percakapan belanja online, hi sis atau hi gan, hi min ini berapa harganya? Kemudian dijawab ini 300k atau yang ini 235k. Lantas muncul di benak kalian apa sih "k" ini?

"k" di belakang angka harga barang atau jasa yang sering kalian temui diambil dari bahasa Yunani "Chilioi"yang berarti "ribu", kata Chilioi kemudian diresap ke dalam bahasa Perancis menjadi "Kilo" yang juga berarti ribu. Kata Kilo kemudian berkembang menjadi banyak satuan, misalnya kilogram, kilowatt, kilometer dan lain sebagainya. Misalnya 1 kilogram = 1 x 1000 gram. Dengan demikian, huruf k yang sering kita temui berarti sama dengan Kilo di Perancis yang berarti ribu. 

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Sweet and Tasty

Hands are feeling cold,

my nails are well polished in velvet,

my skin are half open and wide,

with that silky dress I walk away,

oh it's rain pour and pour like hell,

but I don't run and I walk like model.

My eyes catch into yours like I see world,

and the night is like promises and fairy tale,

so we talk dance and laugh away as lovely,

don't go away and you say you can't find the way,

isn't it lovely to fall all alone to somebody you want?

waiting the time ticks more and have a space.

don't be that way, don't be this way,

we are too shy to treat each other too well,

impatience and rush but careful too each other,

sometimes like a broken glass, sometimes perfect A+,

I feel like a whore and a passionate partner in same time,

 at the end to say I love you to each other is a promise,

I talk to the mirror I talk to my body and I lost my mind. 

Hurt and we shake may be we break each other,

we know we have risk and made mistakes,

but rather than forgive we cuddling each other,

and only you know the way I could tear apart,

if things come earlier when we were younger and bold,

may be we won't end up the same like tonight. 

Sweet and joyful only come in one sight,

to listen on yours and my weaknessess,

things are unspoken and we vanish each other,

at the moment we are gone and never see again,

as we promise it's only for the sweet and taste,

may be next life we have the chance to be better,

No more and nor like now anymore.  

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