Tuesday, 10 January 2017
I am flying with broken wings
fading into shadows of disappointment
How come I was left behind without you?
With a sun still shines but the earth is frosting
All the little pieces of you turns cold
and through the endless questions I got so tired
too much terrible reasons with hundred emptiness
with logic and arguments, they are heartless
as rude as your heart and darker than black
Maybe someday you will wake up of nowhere
remembering all the things we have passed
missing something you used to feel and have
When you try remembering where you could buy that feel
you realize that pretty and warm taste was a dream
As you walk between the alley, breathing on my name
That is called as memories and also fears of loneliness
that is also glow of tears and crack of selfishness
as the time stops and all turn into zero
nobody will be there as the same
as shiny as the old days.
Thursday, 17 November 2016
Today was a tiring day...........
I got my class so late and I also have to clean up my room, when I was done with my work, I took a bath, having my late lunch and slept. I was slept for 20 minutes, suddenly there was someone knocked my door. Oh it was my friend's boyfriend who gave me box of books. Okay, I was soo soo sleepy, and when he asked me what are you doing? Me.... Sleep...... and I closed the door after he finished giving my books, then I returned to my sleep.
Another knock came, and it was my friend who kept my box of books, she was moving to apartment and would like to say goodbye. suddenly I was astonished, she was crying in tears...........
I was laughing and tried to comfort her... "Hey, we will meet in campus everyday... you act so cute lols...."
She was flooded on tears until she lost her words... couldn't stop her tears, made her cheeks pinkish and so funny.I guessed only hug could comfort her... :')
I hugged her firmly, and she looked happier......
Well, after that good bye, I realized she really enjoyed her stay here. Well, I am glad now she grew well, the first time I knew her, she was scared of butterflies, lizard, public speaking, she was spoiled, having crush with my debate partner (a burning desire to be with him who she finds very attractive and extremely special lols).
She grows up to be more adult now... She got a boy friend with my debate partner (thanks to me and my team LOLS), she lives alone now which indicated she is independent right now. I hope she doesn't cry in my graduation. :D lols~
Monday, 31 October 2016
Tears fall so hard,
From those reddish eyes,
Claws among skin,
Like a broken doll
perhaps beauty in art,
Dully in playful fact,
Why did she feel so upset?
Treated like a wet trash over rain
Nobody can cheer her up
Nobody dares to do so
Until she was so weak
Beaten up by sorrow
Raped by agonies
Slapped by cruelty
The world should be blamed
She whispered, she murmured
what is woman rights?
Or what is human rights?
A fantasy in a dream land
A so called "nitey" dreams
A joke dreams of centuries
Then she laughed with tears
Indifferent with all her emotions
Enjoying pain and torturement
Until the body fight should be over
My chance to escape won't last
No longer, no longer, forever
Work, dreams, lies, placement,
naive, locked, love beds, stranger,
Tore up, touched, smashed, sucked,
Forcement, hard, hurt, hot, grapped,
Can't escape, no, try, cannot, fragile,
Screamed, louder, nobody, monster,
Bited, bleed, banged, bruised, bastard.
Sadness, Slave, unfair, home, hatred,
Freedom, smacked, killed, dirty, blood,
money maker, insane, rebels, failed,
Imprisoned, dark, fears, cried, hopes,
Repeated, failed, repeated, failed, done
Again, again that moment again, again