Thursday, 10 August 2017

My Reply For That Old Self

The tears I have shed for you
like million drops of rain water
swirling and cursing my soul and mind
caging me in dark shades and pain
by losing precious trust and hopes

seven months of forgetting and counting days
so why today with a simple question and talk
Why do we have to hurt each other?
If you were certain to meet me someday
Am I paying certain sin or perhaps I was cursed
today won't be like this awful with some flash back

I will always feel just the same goodbye for you
it could not be changed for every next and last
nothingness and emptiness from my heart
has scattered and disappeared among my newly leaves
So I want to become stronger and better

So alone again, it is okay rather than hunted
with guilt of sins I do not atone
with the tiresome days and sadness
I wish the blossoms grow prettier on our ways
The distance between us is a fate we choose

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Sunday, 7 May 2017

My Self Portrait Poem

I see towards a mirror,
There is someone with a smile
covered with black silky hair
straight like her strong will and honesty

Her eyes are shady, filling with experience
her eyebrows are bold, like her passionate determination
Her face is imperfection, sided with spotty red scars
but she still smiles because her vision is bright

Her eyes is sparkling with the lite light 
both are watered in joy, both are with love
Her lips is pink pale, thin and warming
Her cheeks look tender as smooth as the heart she shares

I see myself as someone with various feelings
they are painted over my face and swirling in my eyes
They are not either beauty or attractive
but it surely give you a warm hug and strong trust.  

It's me............
It's me............
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Tuesday, 18 April 2017

Lotek, Karedok, Gado-gado: Indonesian Delicious Healthy Salads

Hi everyone, today I would like to share my experience eating delicious and healthy food from Indonesia. Three of the food is very popular, we can find it everywhere in most of Indonesian restaurant, you can also find it easily in hawker street or stalls in most of cities.  

Some people are confused of the difference among Lotek, Karedok and Gado-gado. HONESTLY, so do I, lols~ I can't even know which one is lotek or karedok or gado-gado, they just look the same, vegetables with mixed nut sauce, spices and yellow crackers. I thought they were just the same perhaps it was only different calling from each area in Indonesian. But, I was TOTALLY WRONG. They taste different, they have different ingredients and even different sauce. So what are the difference and which one do you like? Let us see from my summary.

P.s before you read further, sometimes my friends always said that I am pretty picky with food, but I am a good taster, I guess you can trust me today, don't you? *wink *wink. I dislike spicy food and oily food, I like sweet food and crunchy food but that won't change my perspective okay, I will make sure to be objective on these salads.

The Salads Bill
First of all, I bought my Lotek, Karedok and Gado-gado in a nearby restaurant in Bandung City called "Pasar Tong-Tong". Why do I choose it? Because it sold three of the salads and honestly I would like to know the difference among those salads and I believe this restaurant can give me good standard. 

Overall they look the same, with same composition of color and with nut sauce. One with egg, the other without fried tofu and cucumber, but most of it contains vegetables and make you a happy and healthy eating lifestyle.

My short review after eating each of salad
Let us see what you can find on each salad lols~


1. Lotek 
beautiful isn't it? :D
Ingredients: Fried tofu (why the color of tofu is yellowish? Most of tofu in Indonesia is brewed in cumin so the color look more tasty than milky white one), water spinach, cabbage, bean sprout, chayote, long bean and fried shallot.

Vegetables: All vegetable is boiled so it is chew-able. The vegetable is moisture and sweetly well-blended.

Nut sauce: the nut sauce is liquid, light brown color, with sweet soya sauce, little spicy and it blends well with the vegetable, it is aromatic with minced sand ginger, it smells pretty strong. I also can taste little brown sugar here, it tastes balance and amazing. I believe this will suit elderly who has less sense of taste.

If you think it is less crunchy, you can also eat it with yellow crackers, it tastes better. Anyway the banana leaf below the food is not eatable okay, it is only the way of serving in Indonesia. Lols I know this is salad, but it is not food :D      




Ups,sorry I took the sauce, lols
2. Karedok
I know this will be spicy, look at the chili seeds :')
Ingredients: cabbage, cucumber, long bean, bean sprout, nightshade, fried shallot. 

Vegetables: all vegetable is raw, this is a good salad for those who love crispiness of raw vegetables. 

Nut sauce: the nut sauce is thicker than Lotek one, less sweet, but there is still sweet soya sauce and brown sugar. The sauce does not stick to the vegetables. It is aromatic with minced lime leaves, very different than Lotek. It is quite spicy and it chokes me up lols. If you dislike spicy I guess you have to order a non spicy one. I love the crispy raw vegetables, I believe youngsters would love this and also spicy lover,  you should try this one for sure!


There is egg inside the salad, so happy!
3. Gado-gado 

Ingredients: fried tofu, fried potato, bean sprout, long bean, chayote, cucumber, boiled egg and fried shallot.
All vegetables is boiled except cucumber.
The nut sauce is as thick as Karedok, very nutty and sweet, the sauce color is also darker because of more sweet soya sauce and brown sugar. It is not spicy at all, totally delicious. I guess children will love this because it has egg and it tastes sweet. It can make you full for one portion, it suits as a healthy lunch. 

So you have known all the difference, haven't you? Besides different sauce, either thick or liquid and either sweet-spicy or sweet. it also has different vegetables and method of cooking, either raw or boiled. I also can differentiate three of them from the aromas. Karedok smells lime leaves, lotek smells like sand ginger and gado-gado smells brown and sugary. 
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What is my favorite? I guess I love Lotek since it blends well with the vegetables, it tastes light but the dressing sauce is deliciously strong. Such a balance combination and I really love it!  

How to enjoy Lotek, Karedok and Gado-gado?? Actually every time we buy this food it is mixed with the nut sauce (but I request to separate it so I can show you what is inside the salads), so mixed the vegetables with nut sauce thoroughly. All salads usually serves with yellow crackers, so after mixing everything, eat a spoonful of this salad with a yellow crackers. 

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a spoonful of crackers and salads, yummy!

So have you tried one? Tell me your favorite, enjoy!  



Thursday, 16 February 2017

Monday, 6 February 2017

I Believe In You (PART 2)

Tidak sukses dengan SMP 1, semua pelajaranku berantakan, pertemananku biasa-biasa saja, paling hanya satu dua teman akrab di kelas. Menginjak kelas SMP 2, diriku masih tidak jauh dari masalah, hari pertama masuk kelas saja, teman depan dan belakangku bertengkar. Dua lelaki hina yang entah sebab apa, beradu mulut tidak karuan. Tiba-tiba yang di belakang entah siapa namanya pada saat itu mencengkram baju yang di depan, tak berapa lama mereka saling meninju. Entah bodoh atau apa, saat itu tubuhku bergerak sendiri, seperti ada yang mendorong dan tak sadar diriku sudah di tengah-tengah mereka. Semua diam membisu, menatap diriku, lalu aku cuma bisa bergumam hei berhenti, jangan berantem lagi. Mereka pura-pura tidak mendengar, tanpa menghiraukan diriku  mereka lanjut adu tinju hingga salah satu kepalan mereka menonjok ke pahaku. Orang bodoh juga tahu rasanya apa, saking sakitnya aku sampai terluntang layu berlutut mencari tempat duduk. Tidak lama guru wali kami datang melerai mereka. Tololnya luar biasa kejadian ini. 

Kisah aneh tapi nyata, diriku malah terlibat pertengkaran mereka. Tiba-tiba disuruh ikut maju menghadap ke guru wali. Pertanyaan pertama, kenapa berkelahi. Pertanyaan kedua, ini hari pertama kenapa berbuat onar. Diriku hanya menjawab tidak tahu, aku hanya korban Sir. Iya, panggilannya Sir, karna guru waliku itu mengajar mata pelajaran Bahasa Inggris. Oke, masalah selesai, mereka saling minta maaf dan ketika balik ke kelas, wajah anak-anak sudah melabel diriku, perempuan nakal, hahaha luar biasa sekali kemampuan label itu...........

Beberapa hari berlalu, tak banyak yang ingin berteman denganku, pada akhirnya malah akrab dengan lelaki depan dan belakang bangkuku. Ternyata mereka pembuat onar kelas, juara sekali, berisik, yang satu pernah tidak naik kelas, yang satu giginya hilang karena jatuh nakal berbuat onar. Terimakasih Tuhan, lingkungan apa ini. I don't fit on this place! Geram sekali.

Karena sudah biasa, akhirnya kami selalu ngobrol bertiga, entah kenapa jadi akrab dan bahkan tau latar belakang keluarga masing-masing. Laki-laki yang di belakang ternyata asalnya jauh dari kota, tinggal sendirian di kosan. Sehari-hari naik angkot ke sekolah, masak sendiri, menyuci sendiri, hidupnya mandiri, suka main game online, nonton anime dan main futsal. Yang depan anak yang cukup kaya, orang tuanya saudagar terkenal di kota, wajahnya modal tampang belagu, tapi sangat pintar matematika, dia pernah ikut olimpiade juga saat SD, punya kecepatan dalam menghitung super, bedanya dia bukan anak manis, pembuat onar kelas kakap, suka loncat sana-sini dan hobi main bulu tangkis. Larinya cepat, seperti kancil, dia pelari tercepat di kelas bahkan tiga besar angkatan. 

Tidak sampai di sana, pertemanan kami sampai ke daerah privat. Ternyata oh ternyata suatu ketika si lelaki belagu jatuh cinta kepada seorang perempuan yang duduk di samping kananku di kelas. Anaknya pemalu, senyumnya manis, cukup pintar dan punya tahi lalat menawan di dekat bibir. Lantas sebagai teman, kami bantu dia untuk dekat dengan si perempuan. 

(to be continued............)   

  

Tuesday, 31 January 2017

I Believe In You (PART 1)

Sungguh pun seburuk apapun hidupmu, pasti setidaknya satu kali Tuhan pasti pernah menghampirimu secara langsung. Entah menolongmu, memberikanmu kekuatan, memberikanmu petunjuk atau bahkan melindungimu dari bahaya dan petaka. Hanya saja ia tidak terlihat bahkan ia bisa saja berwujud orang lain yang tidak kamu kenal. 

Sungguh pun dunia tidak adil bagi keberadaanmu, pasti setidaknya Tuhan sudah memberikan rencana yang terbaik bagimu. Rencana itu tidak akan membuatmu bersedih sepanjang waktu, rencana itu adalah hal terindah bahkan mungkin wujud itu adalah sebuah kematian bagimu.

Sungguh pun kamu menganggap tidak ada yang mendengar suaramu, ketika kamu kehilangan pilihan dan merasa tak terlihat oleh siapapun, percayalah ketika kamu memohon dengan sangat begitu dengan frustasinya benak akal sehatmu, hingga ujung titik nadirmu bahkan mengeras bagai dingin menembus tulang, di sana Tuhan tidak akan membiarkan hambaNya tak berdaya, Tuhan akan hadir untukmu.

Tulisan di atas adalah tiga hal yang sangat kupercaya, apa yang aku percaya? Aku percaya akan keberadaan Tuhan. 22 tahun diriku menginjak di bumi, begitu indahnya hidupku hingga kini dan kuharap begitu pula nanti. Sampai terkadang diriku bangun setengah sadar, masih tidak percaya kenapa sosok tubuh ini masih hidup dalam kesempurnaan. 

Pengalaman hidupku mungkin tak seluas orang-orang tua perjuangan kemerdekaan, tak seluar orang-orang terkaya di dunia juga, tapi entah kenapa aku bisa merasakan Tuhan sedang tertawa, tidak sabar menunggu bagaimana aku bisa menghadapi masa depanku yang luar biasa. Ya, Tuhan sedang mempersiapkan sesuatu yang istimewa bagiku!

Siapa bilang hidupku tak pernah gagal? Orang-orang suka sekali bilang begitu. Kamu beruntung sekali bisa menang ini, kamu beruntung sekali bisa lulus duluan, kamu beruntung sekali bisa bertemu orang itu, kamu beruntung sekali orang tuamu baik, kamu kamu kamu........ Ia, itu aku. Begitu lincah lidah orang-orang bersilat, terkadang terasa iri, terasa getir tapi semoga menginspirasi orang-orang. Asam garam sudah kulalui. 8 tahun lalu, sosok mungil diriku bukan apa-apa. Anak SMP tomboy, gendut, kasar, penindas, sok pintar dan sombong. Tidak ada yang tahan lihat sosok itu, sekali jalan siapapun pasti kesal. Tiga tahun begelut menguji kepintaran, lomba apapun aku hantam, hasilnya sudah pasti gagal, bahkan sudah sampai titik guruku jika mendengar aku ikut, dia pilih mundur mencari anak didik lain. Miris bukan? Mana ada yang mau dengan diriku yang aneh ini...... Dulu aku berpikir begitu. Hingga suatu saat aku menangis di kamar, kesakitan karena tidak pernah berhasil dalam apapun. Rasanya jika berteriak bisa tsunami, kesal, sedih, pilu, tertindas, rasanya sakit sekali kenapa bisa begitu. Aku tidak pernah berhasil dalam apapun, tidak ada yang menginginkan aku. 

Amarahku semakin membara, hingga di satu titik diriku menyalahkan Tuhan. Hey Tuhan, kenapa kau ciptakan diriku yang hina ini? Kenapa aku tidak mati saja, tidak berguna. Kerjaku hanya menghabiskan beras di rumah, tidur-tiduran main game menghabiskan listrik keluarga. Belajarku tidak sukses,bahkan PR pertamaku 0 angkanya, itu halaman pertama di bukuku, bahkan besar sekali 0 nya sampai-sampai semua orang tau ketika membagikan buku di depan kelas. 

Tidak hanya itu, diriku ditunjuk menjadi sekretaris kelas. Baru seminggu aku sudah dipecat, karena lupa bawa absensi kelas dan tidak pernah akrab dengan teman-teman kelas. Haduh, orang macam apa diriku ini, sangat tidak bisa diandalkan, diberi tanggung jawab ibarat menimba air, airnya kutumpahkan semua tanpa sebab. Rasanya kacau sekali menjalani hidup ini. 

(to be continued............)   


Saturday, 28 January 2017

Wired Life

when my life turns 20s,
truths and fates wired me tightly,
things go crazy and unpredictable,
sometimes I scream for help,
sometimes I puzzled of every steps.

I wait for somebody far away,
praying for shorter wait,
and prolong the meeting,
to open a door of world and happiness,
to whom I belong to and cherish for.

I crawl on thousand stairs,
looking on misery and suffocation,
and all my time lines are shredded by tears,
and blood of dusty sincerity,
This body can't freeze in the end
I want to cut the rope of what is written

But who I am in the past and today?
Merely a human with too much hopes
and infinite vespers among day by day
till we can see each other somewhere forever 
let me escape from this destiny

let me breathe,
let me fly in freedom,
let me choose and determine my path,
what it is supposed to be,
and it will be, will be, will be.

Once in this life time, one and only
lend me your magic and blessings
my dearly God, give me chance
to help all those needed, to cheers all the upset
to change the world, to be a more beautiful living. 
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Tuesday, 10 January 2017

That Old Feel

I am flying with broken wings
fading into shadows of disappointment
How come I was left behind without you?
With a sun still shines but the earth is frosting

All the little pieces of you turns cold
and through the endless questions I got so tired
too much terrible reasons with hundred emptiness
with logic and arguments, they are heartless
as rude as your heart and darker than black

Maybe someday you will wake up of nowhere
remembering all the things we have passed
missing something you used to feel and have
When you try remembering where you could buy that feel
you realize that pretty and warm taste was a dream

As you walk between the alley, breathing on my name
That is called as memories and also fears of loneliness
that is also glow of tears and crack of selfishness
as the time stops and all turn into zero

Always remembered
nobody will be there as the same
as shiny as the old days.

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