Monday, 31 October 2016

Woman Trafficking

Tears fall so hard,
From those reddish eyes,
Watered hair, 
Swollen cheeks,
Narrow chin,
Naked body,
Claws among skin,
Like a broken doll

perhaps beauty in art, 
Dully in playful fact,
Why did she feel so upset?
Treated like a wet trash over rain

Nobody can cheer her up
Nobody dares to do so
Until she was so weak 
Beaten up by sorrow
Raped by agonies
Slapped by cruelty

The world should be blamed
She whispered, she murmured
what is woman rights?
Or what is human rights?
A fantasy in a dream land
A so called "nitey" dreams
A joke dreams of centuries

Then she laughed with tears
Indifferent with all her emotions
Enjoying pain and torturement
Until the body fight should be over
My chance to escape won't last
No longer, no longer, forever

Work, dreams, lies, placement, 
naive, locked, love beds, stranger,
Tore up, touched, smashed, sucked, 
Forcement, hard, hurt, hot, grapped,
Can't escape, no, try, cannot, fragile,
Screamed, louder, nobody, monster,
Bited, bleed, banged, bruised, bastard.

Sadness, Slave, unfair, home, hatred,
Freedom, smacked, killed, dirty, blood,
money maker, insane, rebels, failed,
Imprisoned, dark, fears, cried, hopes,
Repeated, failed, repeated, failed, done
Again, again that moment again, again

Thursday, 20 October 2016

Little Note, From Me, To You, Far Away

The day turns colder here,
But I hope the heart is still warm
Mine is still bonded and bounded
because simply I carry your heart

No wonder everything turn different
Even five or twelve ticks time shows
Or ninety nine million miles far away
I still enjoy every little moment now on

There we two, unmitigated, happy in being
speaking little, perhaps less than a paragraph a day
Things which happens are simple, tiny and erasable
But only eyes and heart can speak within 
feels either it is enjoyable or dreadful

Nevertheless, I will always cheer you up
Every day how our fingers type and move
two words, three seconds, one touch
chain of words we compose as our power
to keep strong and care each other

of course it isn't easy and never be easier
love alters not with its brief days and weeks
it demands deep understanding and trust
A simply love seeker can't be this game
we are not betting, we are building

Do you remember what was your purpose?
To start over and over again no matter how boring it is
You know sometimes things are broken and bleed
But that's fine, you capture someone unlike the other
Things will always brand new and exciting.
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Recall of My Life

Hi readers, it has been a long time I haven't posted any update.
Recently I have been so busy with my mini-thesis. Time flies so fast, now I am an undergraduate student and hopefully next year I will be graduated. Such an exciting future, I really look forward of it!

Just now I have finished my chapter 3 of the thesis. It has been a tiring and long day..... I really wish a holiday or hang out, but my friends are busy nowadays with their proposal and I dislike to hang out alone :( So lonely~ But I think I have to bear on it since I slow down myself on my thesis, I have to catch the train.

Suddenly just now I was reminded by all my life time experience. I don't know sometimes I always imagine lots of things while doing some work. I recalled some incident in my life which ever put myself probably into almost dead. There were some I could remembered. First, when I was 2 years old, I was sleeping at my parents room, at that time there was a mass electricity construction in the town, all the town turned dark and my brother and I was was sleeping. My parents lighted up several candles while were searching for emergency light on down stair. I heard their echoes, they found the light and they blew up the candle and put the emergency light on the drawer, after that they went somewhere outside for something. When they got back, they were astonished because the candle was not well blew, it turned into fire and burnt the drawer nearby. The room was foggy, my brother and I did not realize it. it burnt tissues and other easily burnt items nearby. If my parents did not get home earlier, I don't think we were alive. 

Secondly, I crossed a road to my English course, I was so sleepy and dozed in the middle of street, a biker was so fast and suddenly stopped because he did not expect I was crossing. His bike was flew 2 meters up and he was falling back and the bike was in front my eyes, touched my knee. Luckily he tried to control it into right side and the bike stood well. I was so shocked at that time, people around the street was calling me. Glad that we were okay. I was scolded by the biker and felt very sorry at that time. He told me, "if you we crashed by the bike, I don't think you will be alive." After that I was rushing to the toilet and crying when I arrived in my course. LOLS, I feel so stupid.

Thirdly, when I was in high school, I had a team work in my friend's place. She was offering me to send me to her house by bike. I joined her and unexpectedly it was her first time to bike on the main street :') She was nervous, the bike was not stable, suddenly from behind us, two big container truck passed between us. The road was vibrating, my friend was nervous, she told me bluntly "win, I think we will fall down...". I just could not imagine if body was crushed by the two big truck. I did not know why, I kept so calm and I told her,.. "keep calm, slow down, we can make it." She was not listening I guessed and suddenly we moved to right side and my hair touched the truck. I fell like almost fall. I did not want to remember it again............ it was really really scary. My friend was speeding up at that time :'( glad that the truck slew down and we turned right at that time. Anw, the next week after that incident, my friend got a bike accident, I still remembered her cheek bone was cracked, glad that it was not a serious one................... She is OK now on, she is enrolling in a beautician class now in Jakarta.

Do you have same story? Just comment below if you have one :D
Let us recall some past time.