A Little Light Note In The Dark

Five years ago, I am nothing

Nothing more than ashes and trashes

I wonder when I will be something

Precious, special and appraised

When people are on top

I am happy, I am impressed

Until I always try like the way they did

And where hopes and dreams come true

Now I am something

Adorable, interesting, with price and awards

Above of the commons,

Get out from a normal routine

I drive the bicycle and move the pedal

to somewhere I want to know

end up in certain amazing place

the edge of smile in my life 

Then, life is not the same as nothing

People watch, people adore, people like

A star which always shines so bright

Of course several things have to change

The most important and undetectable

The town with no people and living

Emptiness, loneliness, jealousy, fears

Cold, bold, difficult, ironic,backstabber

Now I am questioning

what is my point in the world?

I am a colorful piece of paper

but now blurred with stains

Everything is decreased, vanished

They destroy me,  they badmouth on me

They do it, they dance around my scar

burn, burn the anger, I cannot

Then I go somewhere I run to

A far away, out of their reach

a wrong way, cornered and hidden

And a new life is starting, begun

I feel more comfort although it is far

people who I can trust and rely on

although I love, I fear, I like, I fear

even though I fall, I wake up, I cry

Yes, I am better here

I can grow well and hope

Although I feel like the way is wrong

so wrong that I could not say anything

deep deep inside the core of my heart

someday the place you throw me

will be missed by me and went back

although I hate it so until now